Friday, June 20, 2008

To: God
Re: Dedication

Let me just check I read that correctly. To summarise: ‘Do what you think you should do. The worst that can happen is someone gets injured or killed’. That’s not the most encouraging advice you could give someone, you know. Things like that prove my point entirely. Maybe for next time you’ll know not to say that, but that’s alright for the next person you tell. You’ve already said it to me, and the damage is already done.


I do find it amazing how happy Jack manages to make me. He really cheers me up. He has a brilliant sense of humour. You know someone who can make me smile has really got something special. I wouldn’t be able to live without Jack now.


You don’t have to worship the creators of other books…can you tell all those kids who worship JK Rowling that? All those annoying kids who snap their glasses in half and tape them back together to be like Harry Potter and try running through walls at train stations. Don’t get me wrong. I love reading, and I’m really happy that Harry Potter’s got so many kids reading who would otherwise just be on their computers, but some of them are just completely ignorant of the fact that there are other (MUCH better) books out there. I hate all the bookshops who open at midnight when there’s a new Harry Potter book out. They never open at midnight for the new books I want. And every time there is a new Harry Potter book they have to keep them under armed guard until they’re released! They’re BOOKS! They guard those books better than they guard prisons!


I’m so glad I’ve finally found something you actually agree with me on about Christianity. Gay marriages shouldn’t be allowed. I was expecting you to say that Christians should get off their moral high horse and just accept that gay marriages happen and embrace that.


It’s different with incest though. Brothers and sisters have a choice about who they marry. There are enough other people out there, they don’t have to marry each other. They have kids who aren’t genetically right, just like other people with genetic disorders, but if the brothers and sisters got married to someone else, that wouldn’t be a problem. People with genetic disorders don’t have much choice – it’s in their genes and it’s a risk they take when they have kids with anyone. It’s not fair to say they can’t get married because of that. They can’t help it. Their lives are bad enough as it is.


Okay, you win that argument about M_ses. I’d like to think I’d never do anything like that, but don’t count me out yet. If I decide to do what I think is right, then I hit my head or something, murdering people might suddenly seem like a good idea, and with no religion, there won’t be anything to stop me.


Christianity is all about leading a good life and being a good person. It wanted me to develop into a good person. Now I just want what I want, and it’s making me feel selfish. You can’t say that I’m a better person now.


Gabriel, damn right I wouldn’t be interested in singing Yellow Submarine for you! Stop watching me! You make me want to do damage to something! What do you like so much about that song anyway? It’s alright, I suppose…


Maybe you should go and visit some of your kids. You said you had to a lot of time on your hands (I do hope it's boredom that has you watching me in the shower and not you sitting there waiting for me to get in). You don’t have to visit them all. If you’re inconsiderate enough to get someone pregnant and then leave, the least you can do is go visit them once in a while.


Strippers and porn stars are appreciated by perverts like you. It is possible to get rich by doing normal, legitimate things too, you know. You can even get rich for doing absolutely nothing. Look at Paris Hilton.


I wish I could ignore my dad. I give him the impression that I ignore him, because that’s what he does to me, but inside what he affects me more than I let him know. It’s pointless me trying to talk to him. It’s beyond the point now where our relationship can be repaired. He doesn’t deserve any kind of attention from me. It makes me angry to think I’m wasting time thinking about him. I don’t want to talk to a man who could ignore his nine year old daughter after her mother died.


-Poppy

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