Wednesday, July 09, 2008

To: Poppy
Re: Feelings and the Night

I'm not saying you should become a passive observer of life, just that you should see it all in context. It would make no sense to be alive if you weren't 'throwing' yourself into the experience, which is why most species and individuals don't remember where they came from. Still, there's a difference between being attached and being reliant on someone. When you're reliant on somebody, when they're out of your life (as they inevitably will be one way or another) you're suddenly in a very poor condition.


Well, whether or not it makes you feel better, it is the very reason you're here. It is the purpose of life itself, for us to have physical experiences rather than just knowing the theory.


It is of course, entirely up to Jack what he does after he dies. If he's had enough of the experience of life, he will return to the source and cease to exist as an individual. If he's not ready for that, he'll begin a new life, either as a human or some other life form. Every event, including meeting Jack, has both positive and negative outcomes (from a human point of view anyway). You can't do anything about the initial meeting, it's already happened. All you can do is decide how to relate to it in the here and now. It's an opportunity, if it wasn't, it wouldn't be possible for it to happen.


Being alone is not something most people are cut out for, everyone needs someone to relate to. Or at least, human beings do. Now, most people, simply because they are unique find it difficult to find someone they can relate to on all levels. So they need more than one friend. Subconsciously, they know there's a danger that a certain someone will leave/die /whatever, and so it's best to have more than one about to satisfy each criteria. Suddenly, people are getting involved in large friendship groups. This method allows humans to be part of a group, have many friends and see them individually depending on their mood. While the way it's described may seem a little morally questionable (but then that's humans for you), it's a better means than relying on a single person simply because people change over time. Not that having close relationships is a bad thing, but relying on them for emotional stability can make you end up, well, you know how. You're feeling it now.


The sooner humans start accepting that humans are not yet eternal, and figure out ways of dealing with that, the sooner they'll be able to adapt to people dying.


Resisting a feeling like that however, will not work. People can suppress feelings that way, but they're still there. Sometimes, people do this by accident, they start to feel something, then think of something more important, or the phone goes. The initial feeling is left unprocessed in your mind. It may be interesting to know that this is the purpose of dreaming. The dream process takes these fragments of emotions and thoughts that have not been put in order and sorts them out, which is why dreams can seem so random, and why (with strong feelings) they can seem so vivid. With strong negative feelings, they become nightmares. It is much the same process as a computer running a defragmentation process on the hard disk. The answer is therefore, to confront these feelings. Rationalise them, express them, play with them in your mind.


If someone experiences strong feelings like this often enough, or doesn't get enough sleep (or both), the dream process may not be enough to purge these feelings. This tends to result in the feelings having a physical impact, such as not eating properly. Be careful it doesn't turn into something too serious huh?


-----Original Message-----


From: Complaints Department [mailto:Address removed by anti spam software]

Sent: 07 July 2008 11:57

To: God

Subject: FW: Happiness


Of course, when you realise it's all futile and give up, and things still get to you, that's when life really starts getting you down. I figure most other people are happy, or at least are happy some of the time. Of course, the universe couldn't survive if they were all as sad as me. Might be better off if it didn't anyway, doesn't seem to be much point to it. At least humans can end their lives when it gets too much for them, most of the time. I can't even do that.


That reminds me, I've seen depressed humans cutting their skin sometimes, not enough to kill themselves but enough to bleed a fair amount... Why would they do that? Surely if there's any way things can be worse it's for their bodies to be bleeding and in pain.


For you it's not as impossible as you think. You humans don't have to feel anything you don't want to, with practice you can even control it to quite a fine degree. Not totally, but almost. It must be nice... I'm sure it'll never happen for me mind you. Not that I imagine I'll be wanting any future lives but if I did I'm sure they'd end before I could be happy in any sense of the word...


Love and light are things that affect other people,

Camael


Signature - I'm not always this depressed... Except when I feel, think or do anything really...

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