Re: The Curse of Life
The "curse" as you put it is not the things that are happening, but the way you attach yourself to people and events. Things are not too good to be true but are simply true or false, still, people allow themselves to get so reliant on other things and people that when they inevitably lose them it becomes a great tragedy for them.
Nobody is too young to die. Your race is a perfect example of that. You know as well as I do that children die even before they are born. Nowadays, Cancer is not so restricted to those who have been abusing their bodies in such a way, virtually anyone can get it. The background radiation level of your planet has increased dramatically with radio and microwaves, amongst other things. Mutations caused by such things are inevitable.
Good that you don't regret it, but your life journey is a choice, not a destiny. You could have just walked away when Gabriel left you with Jack, but you didn't. You made the choice, consciously or otherwise, to see what he had to offer in the way of experience. Of course, he made that choice too. His soul desires to have the experience he's having, even if he doesn't realise the fact. It's one of those experiences that is very interesting to compare to similar ones, so we'll be looking forward to that when you've both returned to us.
As to cutting him out, it would be unreasonable at this point. You're already attached, and you'd still be upset about it regardless. Having said that, that never stopped humans before... Humans do tend to think the worst of each other, but usually their fears about people's reactions are unjustified. They tend to exaggerate the emotions they believe others feel. You said you didn't want him to go home, any reason he had to?
It is nice to see that you're sticking with it. It shows a certain amount of strength in your character, there are people who would find such an event too much for their minds to handle. Contrary to your belief, there are not only so many times a heart can be broken. You can find the strength to continue with your life. Despite the way it sounds, it is fascinating for us to have such an emotionally charged experience, which is part of the reason why life was created in the first place. Now, since everyone is unique in some way you could well say that nobody could replace him, still, that doesn't mean that new relationships aren't there for you later on.
Humans find it difficult to deal with death I know, but you do not have to. It's not so different for Jack, inevitably you'll be left behind, but until that happens you might as well enjoy yourself with him too. There's no advantage is being upset because you anticipate heartbreak...
If you're finding eating solids difficult, perhaps liquidising it would help? You'll need to eat if you're going to be in any condition to enjoy yourself with Jack, it's hard to enjoy yourself when you're starving, especially if you're crying as well. Of course, silly superstitions such as breaking glass gets you seven years bad luck don't help either. Seven minutes maybe, because you have to clear up the mess and you could cut yourself...
-----Original Message-----
From: Complaints Department [mailto:Address removed by anti spam software]
Sent: 03 July 2008 22:53
To: God
Subject: FW: Love and Pain
Well exactly, why bother trying once you see that nothing can help me. Facts of life... Just another way of saying you're stuck with it. Doesn't mean you have to like it. Not that there's anything to like about my life. Of course, people like Michael always come along to prove it's possible for them to be happy, so sucks to be Camael. They try to help, attempting an impossible task, then are still ok with it when it doesn't work.
Well exactly, no wonder I don't have any friends. Who'd want to be friends with a manically depressed angel? At least your life seems to flip between being happy and not, even if it's mostly not. At least you know it's possible for you to be happy. Doesn't apply to me of course. Nobody could ever love me like Jack loves you, even if they were shortly to die.
You can guarantee, if having someone and losing them is worse than never having someone I'll be experiencing it at some point.
Love and light are things that affect other people,
Camael
Signature - I'm not always this depressed... Except when I feel, think or do anything really...
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