Re: Energy, Stress and Another Chance
It is not at all surprising that Damien is shattered. Most of his energy is spent trying to avoid spending energy on the things he no longer cares for. Caring for a newborn baby is stressful at the very best of times, but to be forced into doing all the work yourself, trying to keep two girlfriends from each other and thinking your entire life is going to be committed to an extension of what's happening now...
Especially when he knows full well he messed up a relationship that could have meant none of it taking place.
As a friend you can only be there when you can, give advice if need be. You can't change what is after all, his choice. He could easily dump both girls, even if it means losing access to Chelsea. It doesn't appear that he desires access to her in any case. Of course, things could be different, but it's hard to devote energy into bonding with a child when you simply have no energy left to spend.
It seems Michelle is becoming less and less stable too. Damien's lack of devotion is making her try to correct him, the method being to "encourage" him to do more. Not that she particularly wants to do the work anyway, but it's a good excuse for her to justify in her mind forcing it on him whenever she can. Seeing his lack of desire to do it though is starting to get to her, and it'll only make her take harsher actions to try to force him to change.
Most of all though, it's the child who'll get it the worst. At the moment she's too young to really understand anything other than "I have to cry for ages before anyone sorts out my problem". When she grows up a little, and sees how everyone else's parents but hers seem to really love their children, that could well have horrible effects on her own mental state. Having a mother who won't lift a finger to help her, and a father who can't even seem to identify her as a human being and only helps her because he's forced to won't do her any good. You're quite right of course, her name is the least of her worries...
Now, we've discussed this a little in the past but not gone into detail regarding the life process. The universe has been created so that every event that can happen, does happen. Some of your scientists (not to mention sci-fi writers) have come up with very similar ideas to this, basically involving parallel universes.
Sometimes, souls choose a particular series of events that they desire to experience, usually in collaboration with other souls. When this happens, they follow through the life cycle of that event. For example, you and Jack have chosen to experience a relationship together in a certain way, and thus your souls follow exactly the same choices. Every choice that you didn't make still plays out, but there is no soul attached to those choices (this is also why you're consciously experiencing these choices and not others).
The amount of possible choices is vast, but not infinite. There are only a certain amount of atoms in the universe, and therefore only a certain number of possible events that can happen. This is also the reason why the universe is so huge, it needed to be as big as it is for two reasons. One is that enough time had to pass between the beginning and end to allow for all the possible events, and the other is that it had to have enough "raw material" to allow for every interaction of particles possible.
It might well sound so far above reality as to be considered impossible, but that's God for you.
It does seem to be a human tradition that hen/stag nights are supposed to be a last reminder of your freedom, and therefore you're supposed to do all the crazy things you won't be able to do after you're married. By that measure, it seems to have gone very well! It also gave you a chance to start patching things up with your dad, and did the same for Jack too.
Despite the method used, the end result worked out perfectly. You and Jack got a little practice in seeing and feeling each other's more intimate parts (which you both enjoyed no matter how pissed off you were), you got married in time, you found out plenty about your Dad and as you've already indicated, had fantastic sex! Nobody got hurt, and although people don't like to think the end justifies the means, if the end result doesn't, what exactly do humans think does?
The conversation you had with you Dad was a wonderful indication of what you actually have in common, and the way life can sometimes be so ironic without your realising it for so long. You have a chance to accomplish a lot of healing now, if you can keep talking. He'll be a good person to have there for you too, since he's had personal experience of what you're facing. It was very nice as well, that you went from not wanting your Dad anywhere near you to him giving you away at your wedding. Shows how much can change in such a short time, if people are willing to be open with each other. Keep it up, and you'll find things get much better. At the very least, you know what happened with him all those years ago.
Well, as you saw it's very difficult for angels to stop being themselves, even for a little while. After all, if you're not yourself you're nothing at all. It's almost like asking you to just stop loving Jack, it just can't be done because it's as much a part of yourself now as water is a part of clouds. Gabriel does try to mix herself with Michaels feelings though, it's just more long term, and it generally has to be done in a perverted way.
From: Complaints Department [mailto:Address removed by anti spam software]
Sent: 31st October 2008 23:49
Subject: FW: Life and Living
No of course it isn't, but still, for certain things it would surely be easier for your society to just get rid of them rather than try to punish or rehabilitate them. Has to be taken in context obviously! I'm not talking about executing people for dropping litter here!
Oh but Poppy you two could make a fair amount of money from this! You have a lush, sexy body and people should see it! Weren't you taught at school that pornography was a good business for a young woman to be involved with? Or that at those rare times when you should put clothes on, you should always think about what will cause the most drooling stares. No wonder your planet is in such a state...
I suppose you are having sex a great deal though, and you've been trying some different things (didn't I say he'd be kissing your 'lips'?)! That at least shows there's some hope for you after all!
You should never be afraid to say what you think or feel, and it's lovely to see you're getting over that with Jack. A little more with other people wouldn't go amiss though!
Yes, I was right. Don't ever forget it!
Oh no, we're not getting married. Marriage is for humans and other such muppets (Gazardiel). To think of restricting yourself in such a way, with actual vows, as a means of expressing love... Still, it does mean a fun hen night, as you can attest!
Yeah Gazardiel is treating your bouquet well. He has a huge place full of that kind of stuff. He basically collects something from each wedding he visits, and it's all kept perfectly clean and unchanging. The flowers won't even die, at least, not until he does. He visits the place as if it were a shrine.
That truth, dare or get spanked was great! It's a classic (well, for me anyway)! Oh I was not trying to "seduce" your husband... Just get him aroused at the sight of my gorgeous body. It was necessary (and fun)! He had to be enjoying himself doing the kind of things his father caters to in order to be able to communicate properly with him.
What makes me want to have sex with someone else? The fact that sex isn't just about expressing love! It's also a great deal of fun, and can be very perverted, which is my purpose in life.
Well, no I didn't really think you'd measure me, I was more 'hoping' you would. Still, just because Jack noticed, if you can't explain it, he'll have to drop it because he can't ask me himself. No harm done.
Yeah I didn't flash anyone at the wedding! As for the boobs thing, oh come on, girls do that all the time! That's what they're there for! Gosh, you've been having sex in so many places, such a lot I can't believe you hadn't realised that...
Now watching you (in full HD) is one thing, but hearing you talk about it has its own charm! At least you know now that there's plenty of stuff you can do that isn't wrong in any way, even if you are still limited to one person. I do love the way you can't refer to Jacks big penis at all though, makes you seem cute and innocent, it's quite attractive! You should try that on Jack sometime! Maybe in a schoolgirl uniform...
Ok, the more serious bit, the trust thing. The fact is, I can live with any damage done. I'm not like Michael, who feels he should be honest all the time. As long as the end result works out for those I care for, it's ok that you haven't forgiven me. You'll be happier because of it in the long term, even if you were a little upset at the time. That's what matters to me.
Love, light and medical experiments,
Signature - There'll be time for explanations later. And hopefully, some sex!